5 Months ago I sat on my couch bawling my eyes out that I
would miss today. That was not the plan, and for that I am grateful. At the
same time, God had some wicked plan that I would however be in mega pain today.
Guess we can’t have EVERYTHING we want. I actually had slept like a princess. I
took some Flexoril and some Melatonin before bed, the doctor said to, and BAM.
I was out for most of the night, maybe got up a couple of times. But when I
woke up to sing our traditional birthday song, I couldn’t! “Today it is your
birthday and we sing to let you know that you will be queen for the day,
whatever you say goes!” My insane planning was thwarted this week. I had no
outfit or crown for Madison, the one thing she picked as her birthday breakfast
we didn’t have, and my head felt as if it were splitting open. For four hours I
was in pain. Pain I have never felt before in my head. I cried. It was unfair
and too much. Skip looked at me at one point, “when do we go to the hospital?” “NOOO!!!
MY daughter turns 13!!!” I tried all my meds and was hiding under a heating
pad. It felt a little better, and then I called the doctor on call. I got a
call back over four hours from the start of these shannanigans and she said
that if I felt the headache start up to take narcotics. It seemed like the
Beet/Apple/Carrot juice I had made the night before, did the trick. I drank
strong cups of coffee, anything I could do to get my brain to stop hurting.
Like I said, it finally did. At the same time, my neighbor Lesley and her kids
went in to full “Take care of the Wall family mode.” It was good. Alana was
covered, they picked up pizza and drinks, Madison played in the woods with her
buddies, and I tried to get better. It is so nice to have people literally drop
everything for us to help in times like this. It was so needed. I watched Skip
and dad finally finish the room and out back to sit we went. It was nice, I
called Madison home, and she was confused. I now know she was also thinking
that this was the worst 13th birthday ever. Mom is sick, my
traditions aren’t going as planned, I was
kicked out of my room, etc. Then all of a sudden, friends start coming up and
filling our yard. She said it was awesome. She had NO idea that they were
coming over! She knew her family was, but not her friends and the day began to
brighten. Mom wasn’t in pain, her friends are here, and Brooklyn Joes pizza is
happening for the third night in a row. The best part was the room reveal. Skip
decided to let her choose the room and of course she chose hers. She was blown
away! We’ve talked about it all night. She had an idea, but thought she still
had bunk beads at least. And that I maybe painted something gray because it was
on my shirt, but that it might have been an old shirt. It was fun to hear her
thoughts! I told her how I got the ideas, how we had everyone chip in, how cool
it is to have two areas, and everything. She loves it so much and just keeps
smiling. Said she will keep it clean too… that I don’t know about. So all in
all, it was an amazing little day, mom made it to 13 and we enjoyed having
everyone over and celebrating 13 awesome years.
Now, for tomorrow, we aren’t quite sure what that hold, but
I would be lying if I said I wasn’t nervous. I had melting vision 3 times in
the past 2 days. My head felt worse than anything I’ve ever experienced. I
think my body is mad angry with LM and no matter what I did today it didn’t
respond. So tomorrow is a new day, when they’re all off to school, I’ll start
making phone calls. I’m guessing we are going to get in a whole lot quicker now.
Hoping to God I make it through the night and don’t have to spend time in the
ER. I took some Ativan and Tylenol and hope to see tomorrow is a good day. Like
I said, I’ve never felt anything like I did today, and would most rather not
feel that again. Just looking up and holding onto hope.
Madison tonight said, “mom, you had to make it. Your mom.”
That made me smile. She’s right, just had to.
What an amazing day - you made it and you will keep making it - fight, fight, fight my girl.
ReplyDelete❤️you bunches 😊
You all made such a cool birthday!!! I loved the room! Happy 13th birthday, Madison.
ReplyDeleteYou are one tough cookie and what amazes me is that you fought fought for this birthday in pain and you pulled it off.
You have never take anything for granted never have never will. You are a person who stays in the moment...you are the only Mother I knew back in the day who played with your children like I did....we went down slides, swung on swings...you are joy.
May they get a handle on the pain to address it better for you and sounds like your juice drink worked too! Coffee...perfect open up the veins.
By God I love you,
keep in the game.
Suzanne
Keep fighting!!! You are amazing and i admire you. Thinking and praying for you all the time!!
ReplyDeleteKeep fighting!!! You are amazing and i admire you. Thinking and praying for you all the time!!
ReplyDeletePraying for you girl! You are so strong! I'm reading that Draw the circle book, great book...really makes you think about how you pray.
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