Oh, today is a new day!! Happy dance from my recliner! Thank
You for another and thank you God for waking me up in pure appreciation of
another day. It is a gift. I woke up to the peak of sunlight, birds chirping,
and I felt spring being near. I slept more hours last night without waking
which is huge. Today will be day three of me praying circles around myself on
my living room floor, 36 to go. I am praying for a miracle with my team and as
I have many scans this week and doctor things to do, my heart is at peace. It’s
a God peace as this week was painful. Literally. Pain I have not remembered
since September. I want to do life as I always have, and I think denial has set
in. Accepting the fact that running errands has become too much, is becoming
realization. I have to remember they are putting poison directly into my brain
to kill the leptomeningeal disease. Duh! I just had massive chemo treatment five
days go! Monday! Which also means I get to come off Prednisone today!!! I read
this morning about considering every trial pure joy, and I am joyful. I know
the new normal of life is just that, the new normal. It means looking at each
day differently, appreciating it, and going through it with the best attitude possible,
for it truly is another gift. Tomorrow is Madison’s thirteenth birthday, and
though today is filled with things to do, I give it up. I give it to the people
who are helping us, and letting go of the things I just can’t do, the errands I
should not run, and sit back and smile at this day. I am so happy I could
burst! I am so thankful for the team that has set off on this journey with us
and so thankful for the prayers, help, encouragement and everything. Lord bless
them so hard for all they do and have done. I wouldn’t be here without them.
That I know is true.
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